Mixing Business With Pleasure

Ok so I work at this food joint downtown in my hometown and since I've been away at school there have been new faces coming and getting hired and so I got the opportunity to work with a few last weekend and this weekend and I noticed that one of them is fond of my boss and my boss is fond of her. But my boss is married...and has four kids which I all know who they are cuz two of them work there. And I've met his wife and I know people in their family because it is a family ran business and some of their relatives go to my church and Im like wow. Everybody in the restaurant knows that they are low key messing around and nobody says anything. I know Im not going to say anything but what in the world is going on. This girl gets her food free and privileges that we as other co-workers cant get all because she's allegedly sleeping with the Owner/Boss. That is not tight and not cute and I think its crazy how everyone is turning the cheeck on this matter.

So...Im Lost

I've been knowing this guy for like two years and a half years now and we've liked each other from the moment we laid eyes on one another ( I know so cliche' right lol) but it wasnt love at first sight or anything. It was more like lust at first sight. But he was like one of the most popular guys at his school and he was a starting player on his football team and he was fine and everybody wanted to be with him and he simply if he wanted to, have any girl he wanted. And I never liked guys like that for the simple fact that I feel like I have to be in competition for him and then once we're together I have to fight or defend our relationship amongst the other many girls who want him too and dont care that he's with me. So I always went for the guys who may not start first but eventually get put in the game. The guys who he's known amongst plenty but he isnt the eye candy for school and yeah their may be a few girls who like him but not enough so that I would ever have to worry about him creeping around on me behind our back. But I liked this guy and the shocking thing is that he liked me back. Now I dont have low self-esteem but there are certain people where you're like why do you want me out of all these females right. Especially since I practice abstinence and he CLEARLY doesnt and I didnt go to his high school. I actually lived about 35 minutes away from him waaaay on the other side of town. So I didnt trust him and he didnt trust me because his last girlfriend surprisingly cheated on him!!! But we kept in touch through text messaging off and on and now Im thinking about actually making him my boyfriend because he's taking a semester off from school due to physical therapy for his broken shoulder from football and he moved so he lives 10 minutes away from me now but it seems like now that Im interested he's no longer chasing me so now I dont know what to do.
Any advice?

So...Im Lost

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The free write

Censorship is freaking bananas over in China like who takes the time to make sure that certain key words cant be found on the Internet. Who made that legal. Like who the hell do the Chinese Communist Government think they are. I have never seen so much control in my life over a dominant society. I don’t know if this is suppose to unify the Asian culture over there but I think not. I feel that its just a tactic that helps people follow whatever “Masta” says to do. And why would you want your country to be like that anyway. Maybe its because Im American and we are taught over her e to be individual and not to plagiarize or take someone else’s idea but to reinvent and come up with an original piece on our own. I think that the world is better because of individual analysis on certain subjects, Any subject it doesn’t matter. We are never gonna understand all the aspects of the world with us all thinking and acting the exact same. I feel that China is full of shit and that sucks seeing how a lot of our things come from China. Like what is there purpose of trying to stop people from looking up things such as freedom and anti-censorship and all other sorts of things. Do they think that if their people develop a mind of their own and have their own opinion that they will over rule the Government. I don’t think so well maybe I do seeing how they are always trying to keep the Asian people down in shambles. I would over run their asses too. But do they honeslty think they don’t have these thoughts and ideals anyway in the privacy of their own home. You pretty much holding a society captive and not allowing yourself or the country to grow in a better place or on a totally different level because you wont let people grow intellectually on subjects that go against your Communist thinking. And who said Communism was the freakin way to go????? I wanna meet the person who said yeah lets all be completely 100 percent alike no matter if we have different levels of difficulty as far as our job lets all get paid the same or lets all have the same amount of utitilties and materials because we are suppose to be united. That’s bullshit no if Im a plastic surgeon and you’r e a janitor why the hell are we being paid the same like come on now that’s not making things equal at all that’s fucked up for those who are trying to make a substantial living for themselves. And like I said before its not just financial its intellectual stability as well. Its like you want to have so much control and power over the companies who provide the Internet access to the country for what> Are you low key a coward in your own right and you don’t want anyone to find that out about you. What façade are you displaying that you afraid that if we lift the veal over these people’s eyes that your image will be tainted. Like and is it that deep. Like seriously. Why cant people have the right to think on their own. IT just simply amazes me. I wish President Obama would do such a thing. Even though I support him 100 percent he would be the first person I kick in the nuts if you try to stop my level of thinking and opinions. Cuz you cant possibly think that’s whats best for you and the country its not air head. There are other opinions that can support or go against your way of thinking but its takes everyone to a new level and if they seriously go through with something like this then I feel bad for the oriental children that are growing up in this type of environment. They’re going to be brainwashed forever they wont know whats right or whats wrong and that’s so sad because what if they come to America andrealize that they are certain freedom rights and human rights that we have that they didn’t even know existed. Talk about being ultra pissed off. That would try someone mad. I know I would want to start slaughtering people left and right. Then they may feel that they’re whole life was based on a lie or just a series of things that people wanted them to hear or see or know or believe.They realize they don’t have their own beliefs and values because they have been constructed by the government since birth. Im kind of sick and tired of talking about this its kinda frustrating me and its getting quite old and boring seeing me type and rant on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on about things that don’t affect me and maybe that’s the spoiled selfish mentality of being an American. IT doesn’t affect me so who gives a flying fuck….I know I don’t. But I do but there’s nothing I can do to stop it or make a difference.

Internet Censorship in China

So today in class we had to find an article from a newspaper about something international on EBSCO and the one I chose was the battle in china about the web censorship. Pretty much to summarize the article it was saying that if you are in china and you google like independence or persecution that there will be a link that says that this page can not be displayed. The Chinese Government and taking control of the web and censoring the Internet so that you cant google things that they dont want you to see. It's an ongoing battle because China is just too controling in my opinion. What do you think?

Works Cited

Paul, Wiseman "In China, a battle over Web censorship." USA Today n.d.: Academic Search Premier. EBSCO. Web. 13 Oct. 2009.

Go COLTS

This post is pretty straight to the point. Im from Indianapolis and I love the freakin Colts and they kicked butt! SO yeah GO COOOOOLTS!!!!!

Lock-IN

this past weekend there fraternities Alpha Phi Alpha and Kappa Alpha Psi came together and sponsored a great weekend. On Friday they had a basketball games against the two frats and then right afterwards they had a lock-in from 12-6 in Irving Gym. I first thought wow six hours in a gym is going to drive me crazy but no I came at 12 and they wouldnt let people leave until four which I did leave early. I felt like I was busting out of prison...lol but there was rockband and card games like Phase 10 which I played with this guy name Julian who is an Alpha along with some of my other friends. He was talking mad shit but he backed it up because he ended up beating us in the end. lol It was a pretty good weekend

Rough Draft

I guess one thing I totally need to change before the final draft is trying to take my song and really connect it to the book. Im having a hard time doing so or wrapping it around with one particular topic to sum the book and my song up....considering my song has no hook no chorus just a free style. But Im pretty sure I will get it together sooner than later