Random Emotions

So I get through my first rough draft in this class. Im going to be completely honest I felt like this was an easy assignment. I hope my grade will reflect my confidence. But anywho, I feel like crap right now. T.O.M. showed up yesterday during class so I know the rest of my week is going to be a little damp and painful. If you don't know what I'm talking about ask a girl lol. Plus people have been irritating me lately. Im having serious problems with my best friend of almost 15 years because of the distance between us. Im sorry Im trying to make a better life for myself in college while she's back at home just working and doing nothing else. It's like since Im not there twenty-four seven and I'm not always partying with her then I'm not her best friend. I feel like a best friend may not always be there when you want them to be but will always be there when you need them to be and thats exactly what I do. Im always there when shit hits the fan and Im starting feel unappreciated of the important things I do do for our friendship rather than the meaningless trivial things I dont do like take a ton of pics of us or have her as my status on facebook. If you honestly need all that show boating to know that Im your friend then this relationship will never work cuz none of that means anything with push comes to shove. Bottom line I feel I've been more than a friend to her, Im like family and Im tired of being recognized as anything less than that.