Just Send Me Somebody Jesus!!!!!

So yesterday was pretty good. Me and five of my friends went to my hometown in Indianapolis to go find some clothes for Homecoming next weekend. We went to my two favorite malls: Castleton and Circle Centre. I met up with my mom and little sister at the mall and they helped me piece two outfits together. What would I do without my family...idk. After a loooooong day there we finally came back on campus around 11 and we went to Late Night. I saw this young boy who I am quite fond of. He had been texting me all day asking when he was gonna see me and I was excited seeing how I havent had any male attention in a while. Well it just so happened that this girl I know likes the same guy I like; actually she likes two guys that I like. And the boy I met up with at late night had been going over to her room and it discourage me when I found out. Idk why because I never try to get emotionally attached to any boy when I dont know if they are getting attached to me. And me and that girl are quite different. Very different in every way possible. She's really short and skinny. I'm short and "pleasurely plumped" or thick. She wears weaves (you know fake horse hair) while I rather go all natural with mine. I can't compete with that. It's like dang Im a good person so why haven't I found a companion that likes me and only me. I kind of think Im taking this thing too far but this is all the stuff I be thinking in my head which makes me just want to focus on school and nothing else and forget boys exist. UGH!