FINALS FINALS FINALS

I have five finals out of six classes that I've taken this semester and already I have one B and I just aced my first final of the week in my EDPSYCH 251 Class. Im sooo psyched about that lol. I got 86 out of 90 on the test and thats the best I've ever done on a test in that class. I pretty much get A's in everything in that class except the test. I get like a low B or a high C hnow I finally got a 96% which is an A. And I couldnt be happier...One down four more to go...By Thursday at 1 this whole semester will be over for me....and gosh darnit I can't freakin wait!

Coutdown til my Birthday is going strong too....11 more days til I turn 19. Yeah thats right my birthday is on Christmas. And contrary to what everybody thinks. I dont get ripped off on my birthday and christmas gifts. It's actually pretty freakin sweet that my birthday is on Christmas its like double the fun!

COLTS!!

So the freakin colts are the best team in the NFL right now. I from the heart of the colts in Indianapolis and I always have rooted for them. I'm so happy others are starting to see our potential again since we won the super bowl not too long ago. Im glad that the Colts are showing America that the Superbowl was not just a one time thing. We are unstoppable as long as we stay focused. We are undefeated right now. We are 13-0! WHOOO HOOO....take that you patriot fans!

My Final Project

i think that overall our group project presentation was a success. We recieved a 86 percent on it so thats like a B right. I think that we had very good information and Im glad that our topic was over what I wrote for my arguementive paper. it makes me feel like i really achieved something out of this class. Im gonna miss it

Our Conference

Our conference last Thursday went a little worse than what we thought. Dighton really gave us feedback as far as trying to put in pathos on our website since our audience is pregnant women or mothers already. We are going to fix some things here and there but she said we're on the right page. We plan to meet next Tuesday to get the finishing touches on our website while Katie does a brochure for our website. Im not worried whatsoever

Last Wednesday

Last wednesday me and the group came together at Bracken and finally created our website. I found webs.com and we made a template and all that good stuff. We chose to have videos and games and testimonies as well on there so it looks like a real website. We feel that its going to be a success. We just need to piece are things together.

I'm A New Member

Today I went to church and decided to join and become a new member. At first I was nervous seeing how I'm already an active member at my church back at home and I've been at that church since I was four so I dont know anything else. But at Union here in Muncie you can become a member at their church and still be a member at you're home church if you're a college student. I was very happy to hear that because I didnt feel like a visitor anymore I felt as if I belong there and I wanted to make it official. They give us the benefits of being a member without all of the member expectations because we are college students and we will go home and return to our original churches and they are fine with that. They just want to be our church home away from home. I told my mother and she was excited to hear that I joined. She had concerns as well as I when she brought up how I was going to explain this to my pastor back at home but she feels confident that he will be proud of me. I hope so because I dont love him any less just because I joined another church. Overall I feel great about my decision. Next Stop new members class

K3

So today in class me and my other two group members decided to do a PSA montage over the benefits and importance of breastfeeding being off of my position paper. I have had experience in putting a montage together and i know with precise plans and movements with our project that we will do fine. We discuss even doing a website which I also know how to do from experience last year. Im dedicated in making sure that we have an overall A grade for this but I feel that its going to take alot of doing instead of talking and I feel that its about to be all on my shoulders for some reason.

What A Day

So today I woke up getting ready to go to church and praise the Lord. I ended up pushing dismiss on my alarm and rolling over going back to sleep and waking up an half hour later and was rushing to get dress so I can leave on time with my friend that was coming to get me. I go to church and heard the Word and felt great like it was going to be a really good rest of the afternoon. I ate afterwards and planned to go to sleep when I got back to my room. Well that plan didnt last too long when as soon as I was about to doze off my freakin smoke detector started going off for no reason. I had to call the front desk of my building who in turn called an RA to check it who called my RA and he checked who called maintenance who had to call the police who had to call in an electrician to come and fix it since its all set up by a computerized panel. It was going on non stop for four hours. Then while I was out and about while that madness was going on in my room I chose to go swipe in Woodworth with a friend of mine and just so happen to run into my roommate (who I dont particularly care for but since she doesnt sleep in our room she stays with her girlfriend who lives in woodworth I dont have to worry about her) and her girlfriend and while I walked pass she mumbled under her breath there she goes thats kyree right there in a very snobbish Im talking about you behind your back voice and Im literally standing right behind her getting a tray for my food. So it immediately pisses me off cuz I feel like whatever you have to say to me say it loud enough so I can respond accordingly. So she tells me that she's moving out of our room and in my mind Im like "girl where are you gonna stay because we have about a month and a half left of this semester and I know that there are no rooms available" but she says it end such a matter-of-fact way that I told her I dont give a f*ck. And I know that she's been talking about me to her friends and girlfriend through conversations and facebook which I think is so childish. So I let my anger get the best of me and I said welp if she's moving out let me help her speed up the process. So me and another friend of mine takes her lamp, her pillows off her bed, and her fan and takes it all the way to woodworth where she stays with her girlfriend and posted them outside of her door and I leave a little note saying just trying to help speed the process with a smiley face at the bottom. My friend decides she cant hold it in any longer and knocks on the door and let them know that her stuff is out here. She freaks out and tells her girlfriend's RA. Like wth is she gonna do seeing how neither one of us live in this building. She accuses me of stealing her crap cuz not all of her stuff is there but does she really think that Im about to haul all of her belongings to woodworth. ugh no! It was just sooo funny but I was mad cuz my friend made me hide in her room while she talks trash outside. I have a feeling that this will end up in tears and they wont be mine.

Facebook Friend Request

So the wierdest thing happen to me the other day and its quite funny to me when I think about it. I know that people get friend request from people they dont know all the time and for the most part you will either accept it and move on or you push ignore cuz you cant figure out who that person is. Well I had had a bad habit in the past by just accepting and adding people just because but over the summer I went through my friend's list and cut everything down by atleast a third because I didnt know them or never speak to them to begin with. So I go on my home page of my facebook and I have two friend request. One from a girl that I dont know but I've seen her on someone else's page before and another from a guy I didnt know and he didnt have a profile pic which indicated that he had just got a facebook account and hadnt set it up all the way. My profile is set to private so you cant see my page without me accepting your friend request. So instead of rejecting them like I normally would I chose to write them a message in their inbox just asking did I know them because sometimes you simply forget a person or never noticed them in class or whatever. The guy responded with his name and a list of reasons of how we knew each other from high school and church and so i was like ok yeah I know him and accepted his friend request. The girl on the other hand chose to get an attitude with me and was like "I was just adding people that went to Ball State but forget it you can just reject my request since you dont add people you dont know!!!!!!" Im staring at the screen like "Are you serious?"
how are you going to get mad and cop an attitude with me and you know that I dont know you...so I responded with an lol and ok cuz I couldnt believe she took it that seriously. Then I wind up seeing the girl last night at late night and she's mugging me and saying thats the girl who didnt want to add me and mumbling things under her breath. Come on now I thought we all graduated from high school that is some petty stuff right there. I just chuckle thinking about it.

Freakin Technology

So I have had my Acer Laptop since graduation in the summer of 08 and I havent had any problems with it until this semester. its been out of commission for a month because suddenly my charger for it would stop working on and off. So I thought buying a new one would do the trick but oh no after a week it stop charging so I was out of a laptop from labor day up until about a week ago when my grandfather said that he had fixed it. It was going good up until Tuesday mid afternoon when I decide Im going to email my rough draft to my peer edit group and to my teacher and post it on blackboard that it decides to completely crash half way through and die on me and has been off ever since. UGH!!! Talk about a piss off. I simply dont know what to do and over Thanksgiving break Im going to take it back over to my grandpa's so he can have another look at it. but from the looks of things I think I will be getting a new lap top for my birthday

Halloween

So last weekend was halloween and instead of staying here I chose to go home and spend time with my family without having to work. I took my friend Alicia home with me and my brother came and picked me up from school. Aww I love Aaron until he tried to take his own route to my house and ended up going back in the same direction that he just picked us up at which was Ball State so we had to make another U turn and head home the right way. lol and it was raining real hard and his windows kept fogging up. It was amusing. I went to this fall festival that my church holds that gives children another option besides treak or treating because in my religion we are against halloween and the celebration of the dead. I helped volunteer on some games and raffle ticket salings and I had fun. I got to meet and greet with some new people and catch up with some old. After that my friend, my brother, and I went to go see Saw IV. It was just like all the other saws but if you havent seen the first five you wouldnt have understood the 6th one and by the looks of it there will be a Saw 7 coming out next year. Overall it was a good weekend last week

Mixing Business With Pleasure

Ok so I work at this food joint downtown in my hometown and since I've been away at school there have been new faces coming and getting hired and so I got the opportunity to work with a few last weekend and this weekend and I noticed that one of them is fond of my boss and my boss is fond of her. But my boss is married...and has four kids which I all know who they are cuz two of them work there. And I've met his wife and I know people in their family because it is a family ran business and some of their relatives go to my church and Im like wow. Everybody in the restaurant knows that they are low key messing around and nobody says anything. I know Im not going to say anything but what in the world is going on. This girl gets her food free and privileges that we as other co-workers cant get all because she's allegedly sleeping with the Owner/Boss. That is not tight and not cute and I think its crazy how everyone is turning the cheeck on this matter.

So...Im Lost

I've been knowing this guy for like two years and a half years now and we've liked each other from the moment we laid eyes on one another ( I know so cliche' right lol) but it wasnt love at first sight or anything. It was more like lust at first sight. But he was like one of the most popular guys at his school and he was a starting player on his football team and he was fine and everybody wanted to be with him and he simply if he wanted to, have any girl he wanted. And I never liked guys like that for the simple fact that I feel like I have to be in competition for him and then once we're together I have to fight or defend our relationship amongst the other many girls who want him too and dont care that he's with me. So I always went for the guys who may not start first but eventually get put in the game. The guys who he's known amongst plenty but he isnt the eye candy for school and yeah their may be a few girls who like him but not enough so that I would ever have to worry about him creeping around on me behind our back. But I liked this guy and the shocking thing is that he liked me back. Now I dont have low self-esteem but there are certain people where you're like why do you want me out of all these females right. Especially since I practice abstinence and he CLEARLY doesnt and I didnt go to his high school. I actually lived about 35 minutes away from him waaaay on the other side of town. So I didnt trust him and he didnt trust me because his last girlfriend surprisingly cheated on him!!! But we kept in touch through text messaging off and on and now Im thinking about actually making him my boyfriend because he's taking a semester off from school due to physical therapy for his broken shoulder from football and he moved so he lives 10 minutes away from me now but it seems like now that Im interested he's no longer chasing me so now I dont know what to do.
Any advice?

So...Im Lost

the 10 minute free write

The free write

Censorship is freaking bananas over in China like who takes the time to make sure that certain key words cant be found on the Internet. Who made that legal. Like who the hell do the Chinese Communist Government think they are. I have never seen so much control in my life over a dominant society. I don’t know if this is suppose to unify the Asian culture over there but I think not. I feel that its just a tactic that helps people follow whatever “Masta” says to do. And why would you want your country to be like that anyway. Maybe its because Im American and we are taught over her e to be individual and not to plagiarize or take someone else’s idea but to reinvent and come up with an original piece on our own. I think that the world is better because of individual analysis on certain subjects, Any subject it doesn’t matter. We are never gonna understand all the aspects of the world with us all thinking and acting the exact same. I feel that China is full of shit and that sucks seeing how a lot of our things come from China. Like what is there purpose of trying to stop people from looking up things such as freedom and anti-censorship and all other sorts of things. Do they think that if their people develop a mind of their own and have their own opinion that they will over rule the Government. I don’t think so well maybe I do seeing how they are always trying to keep the Asian people down in shambles. I would over run their asses too. But do they honeslty think they don’t have these thoughts and ideals anyway in the privacy of their own home. You pretty much holding a society captive and not allowing yourself or the country to grow in a better place or on a totally different level because you wont let people grow intellectually on subjects that go against your Communist thinking. And who said Communism was the freakin way to go????? I wanna meet the person who said yeah lets all be completely 100 percent alike no matter if we have different levels of difficulty as far as our job lets all get paid the same or lets all have the same amount of utitilties and materials because we are suppose to be united. That’s bullshit no if Im a plastic surgeon and you’r e a janitor why the hell are we being paid the same like come on now that’s not making things equal at all that’s fucked up for those who are trying to make a substantial living for themselves. And like I said before its not just financial its intellectual stability as well. Its like you want to have so much control and power over the companies who provide the Internet access to the country for what> Are you low key a coward in your own right and you don’t want anyone to find that out about you. What façade are you displaying that you afraid that if we lift the veal over these people’s eyes that your image will be tainted. Like and is it that deep. Like seriously. Why cant people have the right to think on their own. IT just simply amazes me. I wish President Obama would do such a thing. Even though I support him 100 percent he would be the first person I kick in the nuts if you try to stop my level of thinking and opinions. Cuz you cant possibly think that’s whats best for you and the country its not air head. There are other opinions that can support or go against your way of thinking but its takes everyone to a new level and if they seriously go through with something like this then I feel bad for the oriental children that are growing up in this type of environment. They’re going to be brainwashed forever they wont know whats right or whats wrong and that’s so sad because what if they come to America andrealize that they are certain freedom rights and human rights that we have that they didn’t even know existed. Talk about being ultra pissed off. That would try someone mad. I know I would want to start slaughtering people left and right. Then they may feel that they’re whole life was based on a lie or just a series of things that people wanted them to hear or see or know or believe.They realize they don’t have their own beliefs and values because they have been constructed by the government since birth. Im kind of sick and tired of talking about this its kinda frustrating me and its getting quite old and boring seeing me type and rant on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on about things that don’t affect me and maybe that’s the spoiled selfish mentality of being an American. IT doesn’t affect me so who gives a flying fuck….I know I don’t. But I do but there’s nothing I can do to stop it or make a difference.

Internet Censorship in China

So today in class we had to find an article from a newspaper about something international on EBSCO and the one I chose was the battle in china about the web censorship. Pretty much to summarize the article it was saying that if you are in china and you google like independence or persecution that there will be a link that says that this page can not be displayed. The Chinese Government and taking control of the web and censoring the Internet so that you cant google things that they dont want you to see. It's an ongoing battle because China is just too controling in my opinion. What do you think?

Works Cited

Paul, Wiseman "In China, a battle over Web censorship." USA Today n.d.: Academic Search Premier. EBSCO. Web. 13 Oct. 2009.

Go COLTS

This post is pretty straight to the point. Im from Indianapolis and I love the freakin Colts and they kicked butt! SO yeah GO COOOOOLTS!!!!!

Lock-IN

this past weekend there fraternities Alpha Phi Alpha and Kappa Alpha Psi came together and sponsored a great weekend. On Friday they had a basketball games against the two frats and then right afterwards they had a lock-in from 12-6 in Irving Gym. I first thought wow six hours in a gym is going to drive me crazy but no I came at 12 and they wouldnt let people leave until four which I did leave early. I felt like I was busting out of prison...lol but there was rockband and card games like Phase 10 which I played with this guy name Julian who is an Alpha along with some of my other friends. He was talking mad shit but he backed it up because he ended up beating us in the end. lol It was a pretty good weekend

Rough Draft

I guess one thing I totally need to change before the final draft is trying to take my song and really connect it to the book. Im having a hard time doing so or wrapping it around with one particular topic to sum the book and my song up....considering my song has no hook no chorus just a free style. But Im pretty sure I will get it together sooner than later

Soulmate by Natasha Bedingfield

So Im analyzing Natasha Bedingfield's song "Soulmate". Its about how Im feeling right now. Natasha is pretty much saying why does everyone else have a soulmate but her. And maybe she's looking in the wrong places for a man or maybe he's in disguise and he's right infront of her. But all she knows is that he's not there or she can't find him.

I really love this song cuz its so soulful and heartfelt.

And I cant wait to analyze it

Just Send Me Somebody Jesus!!!!!

So yesterday was pretty good. Me and five of my friends went to my hometown in Indianapolis to go find some clothes for Homecoming next weekend. We went to my two favorite malls: Castleton and Circle Centre. I met up with my mom and little sister at the mall and they helped me piece two outfits together. What would I do without my family...idk. After a loooooong day there we finally came back on campus around 11 and we went to Late Night. I saw this young boy who I am quite fond of. He had been texting me all day asking when he was gonna see me and I was excited seeing how I havent had any male attention in a while. Well it just so happened that this girl I know likes the same guy I like; actually she likes two guys that I like. And the boy I met up with at late night had been going over to her room and it discourage me when I found out. Idk why because I never try to get emotionally attached to any boy when I dont know if they are getting attached to me. And me and that girl are quite different. Very different in every way possible. She's really short and skinny. I'm short and "pleasurely plumped" or thick. She wears weaves (you know fake horse hair) while I rather go all natural with mine. I can't compete with that. It's like dang Im a good person so why haven't I found a companion that likes me and only me. I kind of think Im taking this thing too far but this is all the stuff I be thinking in my head which makes me just want to focus on school and nothing else and forget boys exist. UGH!

WTF VMA'S

So I know Im not the only who watched the VMA's Sunday night. Ugh all I have to say is two words...Kanye West lol

Like I expect this kind of behavior from him since he's done it twice before. First with the whole Bush dont care about Black People then two years ago when he didnt win the best video award and went up and took the mic and caused a scene saying that if he didnt get an award then the award show loses credibility. But the third time is definitely a charm. He completely humiliated Taylor Swift by interrupting that poor girl's speech pretty much saying she didnt deserve it. Now I was in agreeance with him but dang Ye! Did you really have to go up there and make an ignorant ass of yourself. then the next day apologize like it really means something. Ugh! When will MTV learn to stop putting him on LIVE award shows cuz he clearly doesnt know how to act or reaact to things that dont go his way or coincide with his opinions.

Lady Gaga with her outstanding yet frightening performance with blood all over her and her ridiculous choice of clothing. That is not fashion my friend so her stylish should get shot in the face for having her look a hot mess.

Lil Mama coming up on stage during Jay-Z and Alicia Keys performance even though she has absolutely nothing to do with the song they were performing. lol WTH does that lol.

Overall the award show was merely entertaining to say the least

Random Emotions

So I get through my first rough draft in this class. Im going to be completely honest I felt like this was an easy assignment. I hope my grade will reflect my confidence. But anywho, I feel like crap right now. T.O.M. showed up yesterday during class so I know the rest of my week is going to be a little damp and painful. If you don't know what I'm talking about ask a girl lol. Plus people have been irritating me lately. Im having serious problems with my best friend of almost 15 years because of the distance between us. Im sorry Im trying to make a better life for myself in college while she's back at home just working and doing nothing else. It's like since Im not there twenty-four seven and I'm not always partying with her then I'm not her best friend. I feel like a best friend may not always be there when you want them to be but will always be there when you need them to be and thats exactly what I do. Im always there when shit hits the fan and Im starting feel unappreciated of the important things I do do for our friendship rather than the meaningless trivial things I dont do like take a ton of pics of us or have her as my status on facebook. If you honestly need all that show boating to know that Im your friend then this relationship will never work cuz none of that means anything with push comes to shove. Bottom line I feel I've been more than a friend to her, Im like family and Im tired of being recognized as anything less than that.

It's CARDINAL TIME!!!

ugh!!! what a freakin disappointment last night was!!!! I was soooooo hyped for yesterday's first home game of the season. I went to every home game and some away game's last year and I was so proud to chirp uncontrollably because we were 12-0. Undefeated Champs....until the MAC. I get there and me and my crew are sitting right next to the ban cheering the cardinals on. I get discourage from every flag on a play, and fumble, and interception. What happened to the team we had last season. This was certainly not the same freakin team and I just couldnt grasp the fact that we were serverly losing. It's half time and we're 0-10. I was so pissed that I left in the middle of the third quarter only to find out that we didnt make a comeback. How tragic!
This was not a good way to start off the season because now Im not sure if I should go to another game.

Free Write

At last I'm in my bed! I've been in that beauty shop for hours getting my hair just right for high school freshman orientation tomorrow. Only problem is its a quarter til 12 and I know I won't get much rest because my mom says I have to sleep "pretty" tonight so I won't mess up my hair with my chronic turning and flipping that I do when I'm knocked out. I hope my mom is going to be ok though. She seemed like she was in alot of pain right before I said good night to her and my dad. Hmmm, whatever I'm not worried too much about it.

"BOOM! Kyree get up and put some clothes on now, we're leaving!" said my dad.

What the hell is going on? I thought.

I look at the clock and its 1:55 a.m. and all I can do is jump up and put my pink basketball hoodie that was at the foot of my bed and grab some long pajama pants and flip flops. I come out of my room and run in my parents room only to see my dad struggling to pick my mom up and get her going down the 13 flight of steps we had. I knew at that moment what was going on.

We rushed into the car and my dad is flying down the street not obeying the speed limit signs that keep flying by. My mom is screaming from labor pains and is cursing my dad to pull the car over because she's feeling nauseated. My dad is trying to explain to her thats its all in her head its all in her head. My mom proceeds to roll down the window and shoot fumes of vomit all on my dad's back passenger window. I found it gross but yet very funny. She's always right.

My father pulls over and then after settling my mom down we head over to IU Hospital where I was also born at. We rush into the emergency room and the nurses hurry and rush her to a room in a wheel chair. I decided that when this day came I was going to be in the room. I always wanted to see the action in person and I always felt that TV births were too dramatic to be true.

The nurse tries to put this IV in my mother's arm and she messes it completely up which caused pain and my mom almost punched in her face because the nurse had to do it again. The doctor comes in and says "Kandra I have good and bad news"

I get scared, my mom's scared, my dad looks intense.

The bad news is you cant recieve epidural the good news is because you are dialated nine already and you're ready to push. This baby is ready to come out.

Damn that quick! I thought in my head

My mom began to cry uncontrollably. The thought of a natural birth was unbearable and I could only imagine seeing how big our heads run in this family.

Four BIG pushes later and out she came. All gray with a head full of hair. I'll never forget the time.

August 5, 2004 at 3:35 a.m. Janai Chalise Shockley came into existence and changed my life. I always prayed for a baby sister and tadawwww she was here.

My mom always told me if she didnt have a baby by the time she was thirty five she wasnt going to have any more children.

Funny how Janai was born three days before my mother turn thirty five.

Now she's five and starting Kindergarten. Its so funny how time fly by so fast. It's like I can remember her birth vividly like it was just yesterday.

Tears are flowing down my face just from the thought of that day. I love her so much and because of her I am a better person.

My First Real Post

This is my first post so I chose to write about how I'm feeling at this very moment. I'm slightly frustrated seeing how it took me forever to learn how to create a blogger in the first place. I get real antsy at times when I feel like I'm not understanding my surroundings but I guess I shouldn't be too hard on myself considering its the second day back from summer break and I'm not going to get the swing of things right off the bat. I'm quite hungry right now and I have eleven more minutes until this class is over so I guess I will end this post by saying hopefully the rest of my day is a breeze considering this is my last class and if not the sun will come out tomorrow (lol)