So Im analyzing Natasha Bedingfield's song "Soulmate". Its about how Im feeling right now. Natasha is pretty much saying why does everyone else have a soulmate but her. And maybe she's looking in the wrong places for a man or maybe he's in disguise and he's right infront of her. But all she knows is that he's not there or she can't find him.
I really love this song cuz its so soulful and heartfelt.
And I cant wait to analyze it
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Just Send Me Somebody Jesus!!!!!
So yesterday was pretty good. Me and five of my friends went to my hometown in Indianapolis to go find some clothes for Homecoming next weekend. We went to my two favorite malls: Castleton and Circle Centre. I met up with my mom and little sister at the mall and they helped me piece two outfits together. What would I do without my family...idk. After a loooooong day there we finally came back on campus around 11 and we went to Late Night. I saw this young boy who I am quite fond of. He had been texting me all day asking when he was gonna see me and I was excited seeing how I havent had any male attention in a while. Well it just so happened that this girl I know likes the same guy I like; actually she likes two guys that I like. And the boy I met up with at late night had been going over to her room and it discourage me when I found out. Idk why because I never try to get emotionally attached to any boy when I dont know if they are getting attached to me. And me and that girl are quite different. Very different in every way possible. She's really short and skinny. I'm short and "pleasurely plumped" or thick. She wears weaves (you know fake horse hair) while I rather go all natural with mine. I can't compete with that. It's like dang Im a good person so why haven't I found a companion that likes me and only me. I kind of think Im taking this thing too far but this is all the stuff I be thinking in my head which makes me just want to focus on school and nothing else and forget boys exist. UGH!
Monday, September 14, 2009
WTF VMA'S
So I know Im not the only who watched the VMA's Sunday night. Ugh all I have to say is two words...Kanye West lol
Like I expect this kind of behavior from him since he's done it twice before. First with the whole Bush dont care about Black People then two years ago when he didnt win the best video award and went up and took the mic and caused a scene saying that if he didnt get an award then the award show loses credibility. But the third time is definitely a charm. He completely humiliated Taylor Swift by interrupting that poor girl's speech pretty much saying she didnt deserve it. Now I was in agreeance with him but dang Ye! Did you really have to go up there and make an ignorant ass of yourself. then the next day apologize like it really means something. Ugh! When will MTV learn to stop putting him on LIVE award shows cuz he clearly doesnt know how to act or reaact to things that dont go his way or coincide with his opinions.
Lady Gaga with her outstanding yet frightening performance with blood all over her and her ridiculous choice of clothing. That is not fashion my friend so her stylish should get shot in the face for having her look a hot mess.
Lil Mama coming up on stage during Jay-Z and Alicia Keys performance even though she has absolutely nothing to do with the song they were performing. lol WTH does that lol.
Overall the award show was merely entertaining to say the least
Like I expect this kind of behavior from him since he's done it twice before. First with the whole Bush dont care about Black People then two years ago when he didnt win the best video award and went up and took the mic and caused a scene saying that if he didnt get an award then the award show loses credibility. But the third time is definitely a charm. He completely humiliated Taylor Swift by interrupting that poor girl's speech pretty much saying she didnt deserve it. Now I was in agreeance with him but dang Ye! Did you really have to go up there and make an ignorant ass of yourself. then the next day apologize like it really means something. Ugh! When will MTV learn to stop putting him on LIVE award shows cuz he clearly doesnt know how to act or reaact to things that dont go his way or coincide with his opinions.
Lady Gaga with her outstanding yet frightening performance with blood all over her and her ridiculous choice of clothing. That is not fashion my friend so her stylish should get shot in the face for having her look a hot mess.
Lil Mama coming up on stage during Jay-Z and Alicia Keys performance even though she has absolutely nothing to do with the song they were performing. lol WTH does that lol.
Overall the award show was merely entertaining to say the least
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Random Emotions
So I get through my first rough draft in this class. Im going to be completely honest I felt like this was an easy assignment. I hope my grade will reflect my confidence. But anywho, I feel like crap right now. T.O.M. showed up yesterday during class so I know the rest of my week is going to be a little damp and painful. If you don't know what I'm talking about ask a girl lol. Plus people have been irritating me lately. Im having serious problems with my best friend of almost 15 years because of the distance between us. Im sorry Im trying to make a better life for myself in college while she's back at home just working and doing nothing else. It's like since Im not there twenty-four seven and I'm not always partying with her then I'm not her best friend. I feel like a best friend may not always be there when you want them to be but will always be there when you need them to be and thats exactly what I do. Im always there when shit hits the fan and Im starting feel unappreciated of the important things I do do for our friendship rather than the meaningless trivial things I dont do like take a ton of pics of us or have her as my status on facebook. If you honestly need all that show boating to know that Im your friend then this relationship will never work cuz none of that means anything with push comes to shove. Bottom line I feel I've been more than a friend to her, Im like family and Im tired of being recognized as anything less than that.
Friday, September 4, 2009
It's CARDINAL TIME!!!
ugh!!! what a freakin disappointment last night was!!!! I was soooooo hyped for yesterday's first home game of the season. I went to every home game and some away game's last year and I was so proud to chirp uncontrollably because we were 12-0. Undefeated Champs....until the MAC. I get there and me and my crew are sitting right next to the ban cheering the cardinals on. I get discourage from every flag on a play, and fumble, and interception. What happened to the team we had last season. This was certainly not the same freakin team and I just couldnt grasp the fact that we were serverly losing. It's half time and we're 0-10. I was so pissed that I left in the middle of the third quarter only to find out that we didnt make a comeback. How tragic!
This was not a good way to start off the season because now Im not sure if I should go to another game.
This was not a good way to start off the season because now Im not sure if I should go to another game.
Free Write
At last I'm in my bed! I've been in that beauty shop for hours getting my hair just right for high school freshman orientation tomorrow. Only problem is its a quarter til 12 and I know I won't get much rest because my mom says I have to sleep "pretty" tonight so I won't mess up my hair with my chronic turning and flipping that I do when I'm knocked out. I hope my mom is going to be ok though. She seemed like she was in alot of pain right before I said good night to her and my dad. Hmmm, whatever I'm not worried too much about it.
"BOOM! Kyree get up and put some clothes on now, we're leaving!" said my dad.
What the hell is going on? I thought.
I look at the clock and its 1:55 a.m. and all I can do is jump up and put my pink basketball hoodie that was at the foot of my bed and grab some long pajama pants and flip flops. I come out of my room and run in my parents room only to see my dad struggling to pick my mom up and get her going down the 13 flight of steps we had. I knew at that moment what was going on.
We rushed into the car and my dad is flying down the street not obeying the speed limit signs that keep flying by. My mom is screaming from labor pains and is cursing my dad to pull the car over because she's feeling nauseated. My dad is trying to explain to her thats its all in her head its all in her head. My mom proceeds to roll down the window and shoot fumes of vomit all on my dad's back passenger window. I found it gross but yet very funny. She's always right.
My father pulls over and then after settling my mom down we head over to IU Hospital where I was also born at. We rush into the emergency room and the nurses hurry and rush her to a room in a wheel chair. I decided that when this day came I was going to be in the room. I always wanted to see the action in person and I always felt that TV births were too dramatic to be true.
The nurse tries to put this IV in my mother's arm and she messes it completely up which caused pain and my mom almost punched in her face because the nurse had to do it again. The doctor comes in and says "Kandra I have good and bad news"
I get scared, my mom's scared, my dad looks intense.
The bad news is you cant recieve epidural the good news is because you are dialated nine already and you're ready to push. This baby is ready to come out.
Damn that quick! I thought in my head
My mom began to cry uncontrollably. The thought of a natural birth was unbearable and I could only imagine seeing how big our heads run in this family.
Four BIG pushes later and out she came. All gray with a head full of hair. I'll never forget the time.
August 5, 2004 at 3:35 a.m. Janai Chalise Shockley came into existence and changed my life. I always prayed for a baby sister and tadawwww she was here.
My mom always told me if she didnt have a baby by the time she was thirty five she wasnt going to have any more children.
Funny how Janai was born three days before my mother turn thirty five.
Now she's five and starting Kindergarten. Its so funny how time fly by so fast. It's like I can remember her birth vividly like it was just yesterday.
Tears are flowing down my face just from the thought of that day. I love her so much and because of her I am a better person.
"BOOM! Kyree get up and put some clothes on now, we're leaving!" said my dad.
What the hell is going on? I thought.
I look at the clock and its 1:55 a.m. and all I can do is jump up and put my pink basketball hoodie that was at the foot of my bed and grab some long pajama pants and flip flops. I come out of my room and run in my parents room only to see my dad struggling to pick my mom up and get her going down the 13 flight of steps we had. I knew at that moment what was going on.
We rushed into the car and my dad is flying down the street not obeying the speed limit signs that keep flying by. My mom is screaming from labor pains and is cursing my dad to pull the car over because she's feeling nauseated. My dad is trying to explain to her thats its all in her head its all in her head. My mom proceeds to roll down the window and shoot fumes of vomit all on my dad's back passenger window. I found it gross but yet very funny. She's always right.
My father pulls over and then after settling my mom down we head over to IU Hospital where I was also born at. We rush into the emergency room and the nurses hurry and rush her to a room in a wheel chair. I decided that when this day came I was going to be in the room. I always wanted to see the action in person and I always felt that TV births were too dramatic to be true.
The nurse tries to put this IV in my mother's arm and she messes it completely up which caused pain and my mom almost punched in her face because the nurse had to do it again. The doctor comes in and says "Kandra I have good and bad news"
I get scared, my mom's scared, my dad looks intense.
The bad news is you cant recieve epidural the good news is because you are dialated nine already and you're ready to push. This baby is ready to come out.
Damn that quick! I thought in my head
My mom began to cry uncontrollably. The thought of a natural birth was unbearable and I could only imagine seeing how big our heads run in this family.
Four BIG pushes later and out she came. All gray with a head full of hair. I'll never forget the time.
August 5, 2004 at 3:35 a.m. Janai Chalise Shockley came into existence and changed my life. I always prayed for a baby sister and tadawwww she was here.
My mom always told me if she didnt have a baby by the time she was thirty five she wasnt going to have any more children.
Funny how Janai was born three days before my mother turn thirty five.
Now she's five and starting Kindergarten. Its so funny how time fly by so fast. It's like I can remember her birth vividly like it was just yesterday.
Tears are flowing down my face just from the thought of that day. I love her so much and because of her I am a better person.
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